haha, momma.

I'm throwing myself a pity party. No RSVP needed! I am exhausted. For the 3 hours that Grace did decide to 'sleep', she woke up SIX times. Maybe she's teething? Maybe she had gas? Well, she's always been a tooter, but I don't think that really bothers her tummy much. As for teething... the doc has been telling me she's about to sprout her first teeth since she was 2 months old. Nothing breaking though yet. And if she was awake due to any pain at all, wouldn't she have been crying... instead of laughing & smiling. I swear, I think I saw her point at me, laugh and say, "Ha ha... Momma, Ha ha!!" I am so tired.

human-snackin' gorillas.

I woke up this morning to the sound of my baby monitor picking up someone's radio or something. It was weird. I have this silly, silly fear that the monitor will pick up white noise (ya know, noise from the beyond), so I try and keep it turned real low at night. I don't believe in ghosts or spirits contacting the living, but I still get scared. (Like how I love horror movies & being scared, but every time immediately regret watching it, because then I find myself too scared to use the bathroom at night.) I don't know if anyone remembers the movie Congo. It was about those human eating gorillas. For months after seeing that movie, I kept a cup in my bedroom to pee in, because I guess I thought there might be a Deena-eating gorilla hiding in my tub. Ya, a gorilla that travelled all the way from the Congo in Africa, found my street address, somehow had a key copied to let himself into our house while everyone was sleeping, and made himself comfy in the bathtub licking his lips while praying that I would have a bladder movement. Annnnd I have no clue where I was going with this? =)

goodnight, zombie.

Notice anything different?? No wordpress, blogspot instead. Ya, I thought long and hard, & opted for the change. It took me a little while to figure out how to export wordpress, turn it into blogger's format, then import all my posts to blogspot. Buuut, I'm genius, and I figured it out. I used blogger back when it was first getting started. I think I was 15. Yeah, 15 years old. Its changed a little since then. =) We'll see how this goes, I can always go back to wordpress.

So, this morning was nice. I spent hours listening to Noah Jones, eating brownies, & playing on the floor with my daughter. (Whom was in an awesome mood today, I might add) Its been 3 or 4 days now since I've retreated back to my bed. (Ever since Grace was born I've been sleeping on the couch so that I could be closer to her, even though we have baby monitors.) I'm now training to refrain myself from checking on her every hour of the night. She's not going to stop breathing out of nowhere, stop being so paranoid Deena! She's sleeping up to 5 hours at a time now, and hey!, I can definitely deal with that! I think the hardest change to deal with after having a baby is the inability to get a really good nights rest. Have you ever heard a new mom NOT complain about being tired? I was a walking zombie for a long time. And while I might still look like one, I'm starting to feel like a real, very alive person. And I like that Deena. A lot more than Zombie Deena!

'we're not in kansas anymore'

It looks like we're not going to Kansas after all. We were planning on leaving this afternoon, but Jason found out he can't get tomorrow off (even though its a paid vacation day). Not enough volunteers to work apparently. It's a bittersweet feeling I've got right now. I wanted to go, to get out of the city, visit Jay's family, & do the road trip thing, buuuut Grace is just about 5 months old & being in the car for 13 hours would not be the ideal way to travel at this point. I already packed everything just in case we got to go, so I get to unpack today. I got my car cleaned out though. So, I'm seeing the good & bad in this. & Jay will be making $35+ an hour tomorrow. Maybe we can do something fun this weekend. We are def going to go somewhere where Grace can see the fireworks. She's going to LOVE fireworks!