Friday, January 30, 2009


To my unborn daughter  Gracie Jo,

As you have been growing inside me I have been thinking a lot about the day I will finally meet you. So many of us are so excited to see you for the first time. I feel like I know some things about you already from the months you've spent inside of me. You seemed a little shy in the beginning, almost hesitant to move, but as soon as you found your arms and legs, you didn't seem to want to stop. At your ultra sounds, you refused to let us take pictures of you. You always had your hands and arms in your face, just like your mom does. Right before I go to bed, you seem to get a burst of energy, and think mommy's belly is a punching bag. When I'm not feeling well, it takes just a little nudge from you, and I feel so much better, just like daddy does when I need some cheering up!

There's so many things I wonder about you. I wonder if you dream yet, and what you dream about when you sleep. I wonder if the loud music in the car bugs you, and if you too can feel when daddy is taking up the whole bed! I dream about what you will look like. If you will have a full head of hair like your daddy, or if you will be bald your whole first year like your mommy. Who will you look the most like? I know you will be an adorable baby, and grow up to be a beautiful, young lady.

I can't wait to meet you and teach you all about this world. Some things will be easier to explain than others, but your father and I will do our best to help you understand the good and the bad. Your daddy is a little smarter than your mommy, (which he will let you know many times.) so for the tougher life questions, I hope you go to him. Someday you'll have your heart broken, and someday maybe lose a few important people in your life, but we'll teach you that its all in God's plan, and I will be there to help you cope and understand. I hope through life, and all its lessons, you will stay humble, stay focused, and always thrive to be original.

You have two more weeks of growing inside of me before you are ready to meet everyone. When you make it clear to us that you are ready to come out, we will be here, ready to hold you for the first time. Ready to feed you, keep you warm, protect you, and love you more than anything else in this world.

With all the love in the World,



Wednesday, January 14, 2009

Countdown: Four Weeks.

I'm cleaning the apartment and catching up on laundry today. I tried to make an appointment with the eye doctor to get an exam, new contacts, and glasses before the baby comes. They don't have a doctor in today, so I'm going this Saturday. I hate how much I love to change things. I moved the kitchen table to face the opposite direction, and if I was only strong enough, I'd be moving our bed and dresser to different sides of the wall right now. I'm listening to Taylor Swift's new CD right now. Lo burned it for me, and I can't stop listening to it. When I was in high school I use to write all the time. Songs, poems, even stories. I wish I had the drive, or even time to write more now.

I just finished writing up my list of things to bring in my hospital bag. Just four short weeks until parenthood. I'm still not even getting nervous yet. I've been a little nervous about bringing a new baby home, but for some reason the birth/labor is not worrying me at all. I'm very confident that God will be right by my side along with Jason and my mother.

Have I mentioned that Dave Matthews' Spring tour stops in Phoenix on May6th? The day after Jason & I's one year engagement anniversary. =) Dave also stops in Vegas at the MGM on May 8th & 9th, so we might decide to fly to Vegas and see him there! Sounds super fun! I don't care where we see Dave though, I'm just happy he's returning to Phoenix, or somewhere I can see him so soon since Aug. I still think its funny that the thing I liked most about Jason when I met him was that he loved Dave like I did. And Matchbox.

Anyways, my laundry is getting wrinkled, and I have to pee. =)